Its so weird that I’m 23. I’m old…or at least getting older. I think I’ve literally started to lose count. My mind is stuck at 21. Forever 21. Last night, I was on my own tumblr and it says: Nicole.22. And it hit me, omg I’m not 22…I’m 23. This is just a long post… Read More Old Lady
Dear mommas – both new and to be: I want to apologize, for so many things. For every squeal of excitement that I didn’t let out. For every hug that I didn’t give. For every question I didn’t ask about your pregnancy journey or the birth story or your plans for the newest plus one.… Read More My Grief is Selfish
“Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.” – Psalm 25:4-5 You know how sometimes people see that things are just such a coincidence and it must have been fate? I don’t… Read More A Lamp
I know things have been a little heavy around here lately (understatement, much?)…so let’s talk about something else! It’s my birthday soon!!! In about three weeks, I’ll be 27 years old. Twenty. Seven. We don’t usually do much. The last few years, we’d just go to one of our usual restaurants or I’d ask my mom… Read More Beauty and the Hulk
I keep thinking about Sarah. What was wrong with her? Did she have regular periods? Could she get pregnant at all? Did she experience loss after loss after loss? What does the Bible medically mean by labeling Sarah as barren? Was she disappointed every time her period came? Did she give up trying? Did it weight heavily… Read More Sarah
*TMI* One of the questions at my first fertility appointment was simply, “Are you regular?”. Uh, how was I supposed to answer that? I used to be, but I’ve been on birth control and been pregnant and had miscarriages over the last 18-24 months…so how am I supposed to gauge regularity from that? I guess the… Read More What is Regular?
A couple of weeks ago, I had a little break down. I was already starting to feel it bubble up so it was only a matter of time before I imploded. I’d been experiencing weird sleeping habits: I’d stay up all night and sleep all day, or I’d only sleep 3-4 hours at a time,… Read More Mini Break Down